Time to get this under wraps

Lets talk about food. I am not the type of person to eat a salad every day, although I used to be at some point in time. At this time of the year in the southern hemisphere all I want to eat is cottage pie, sausage casserole, roast dinners, pasta (I LOVE pasta!). It is so hard to get motivated to eat well.

The only problem is im starting to not fit my clothes. Not only that but I feel fatigued and sore all the time. I have even taken to having naps in my car some days. Im constantly trying to keep ontop of flare ups with my recurring glandular fever.

This time I say no more!

I have started a journey with Renegade Performance that will take me to just before christmas to complete. Its a slow changing process aiming to build your knowledge and habits over a 4 month period.

After starting with the goal setting portion of the program, I can say my goals are not weight oriented for the first time.

It will be interesting to see how this turns out. Ill keep you guys posted.



Mindset is a becoming a big topic with athletes and high ranking CEO’s. Just look at all the motivational articles lurking about.

I have been struggling with mine recently. Self doubt and negative thoughts are rife, mostly with my training and with any areas feeling like I am letting people or myself down.

Trying to get ontop of this, I have been given the recommendation of reading “12 rules for life” by Jordan B Peterson. Just from the first chapter it has already changed my outlook and opinions.

Self authoring or journalling is a common way of reflecting on the incidents that happen within life and looking at things in a different perspective.

With the help of selfauthoring.com, I am starting to rifle through my thoughts and through my past to figure out the incidents that make me think the way I do now.

The main thing I have taken from these site, books and ideas is that things can change and what happened to you is not what defines you.

Things can change. If you need to talk to a physchologist. I promise its not as scary as you think.

Keep moving onwards and upwards.

Mental Battles

I have learnt so much over the past 3 weeks. I am worthy of my own love and compassion. Who I am now is not who I could be. What I am now is a product of how I grew up. Who made me who I am was coming from a good place. I am not angry at them.

I have so much. I have done so much. I am a wife. I am a friend. I have an amazing job and work for an amazing company. I am beating everyone on the couch who does not exercise, regardless of if I don’t get PB’s. I am strong, mentally and physically. I just need to keep changing the mental aspects and keep on keeping on.

It is tough. It will always be a struggle but I have friends and a partner that can help me. It will always be there with me, I have accepted that.

I am always trying to get better. I will always try to be better. I am learning to love myself and be content with myself. I know that it will not always be easy. I am OK with that.

I am Sandra, and I have anxiety and depression, but I am not defined by these labels and you shouldn’t be either.


So I am an avid reader. I have been since I was introduced to it as a child. We have recently purchased our own house and have been going through all of the boxes that we put away in a storage unit whilst we were flatting. In some of the boxes I found my old childhood books, such as winnie the pooh and the Grimm Fairy Tales.

I find that books give me so much joy. Being able to drift away to different worlds whilst being planted in a comfy bed or chair with a hot cup of tea or coffee, is the ultimate relaxation for me.

My favourite genre has to be fantasy with a splash of mystery, horror and literary.

I am currently reading Witchsign by Den Patrick. From the first couple of chapters it has drawn me in and I just want to keep reading no matter where I am.

Are there any particular books or genres you enjoy?


Foxy Socks xx


I have recently been battling with my mind and my emotions every time I step up to a loaded bar. Whether I am going to do a clean and jerk, snatch, squat, even just a simple box jump.

Its not that I don’t have the strength. It’s not that I haven’t done that weight before. Its that I put myself down. I tell myself I am never going to improve, and I believe it.

I want that to change. I want to take control of my mind. I want to prove to myself what I am capable of.

To be able to do that, I am focusing on technique at light weights. I am listening to podcasts trying to gain more knowledge and try to put it to use.

Below are some I have found so far;

I have also started stretching everyday. Its that small change overtime that can make the biggest changes in your performance. I know I have the tightest shoulders (my physio told me so!) So I am working on them to get that better overhead position.

How to work my mind to be more confident is another matter. One that I don’t know how to fix.

Message me or leave a comment giving me tips and tricks on how to change my confidence and fears. I am going to document how this all works out for me and let you know of my successes and failures.

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! I wanted to start this blog to allow myself to keep a record of what is happening in my life for myself to look back at in due time.

I am a 29 year old semi weightlifter who sometimes does crossfit workouts. This has been going on for the past 4 years and I am hoping to break out of the rut I seem to currently be in. I am trying multiple ways of doing this, from working on being more positive and allowing this to flow through into my training, to recovering through more stretching and other movement work.

I am also a lover of reading and op shopping with a focus on vintage fashion and clothes, particularly looking at the fashions of the 1940’s and 50’s. What I love to read is mostly fantasy with a little splash of general fiction and horror/thriller.

If you like what you see and are intrigued to follow my story, please subscribe.

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton